Better the 2nd Time Around

Now that I am a parent of 2 children (which seems scary in itself!), I can definitely tell that I am more relaxed the second time around. I guess I know more now that I am not in charge of all the circumstance that happen, that can only be God. I also am not working while Nicole is at this age. When I was working, I was constantly on "go" and never able to sit and just marvel at the different stages. Of course, now I have the guilt issue whenever I am needing to pay more attention to one child than the other for a while. I want to be equal with both children as much as possible.

Things I am enjoying right now:

• Seeing Nicole try to crawl. Which is more like a scoot back and continual roll right now. But, she enjoys getting around this way right now.
• Seeing Natalie learn more at school. Writing her name, coloring within the lines, all these steps of getting better and better.
• Seeing either child smile. It is just like sunshine beaming out.
• Talking in conversations with Natalie. She really enjoys asking and answering questions right now.
• Seeing Nicole clap, try to wave bye bye, lifting her arms to be picked up, trying to talk, investigating toys with her hands.

Of course, there are days when I feel overwhelmed (although I don't quite know why!). But, the BSF Bible study on the Life of Moses has taught me that I don't need to complain or grumble. The Israelites were guilty of this and it only brought them more hardship. I don't really have any hardship! Like the Israelites, I am taken care of by God. So, it doesn't matter if I am getting manna...God has a time and a place when I will have more if needed. I just need to ask, wait, and not complain. Or, just enjoy what I have. And, that is what I wish to do--just enjoy each day as it comes.